Upset

Upset |

• To make someone worried, unhappy, or angry

• To change the usual  or expected state or order of something, especially in a way that stops it from happening or working.

In my situation, it happens both. When something doesn't goes like I wanted, eventually it makes me worried, unhappy and angry. Who doesn't? It is very hard to change people's mindset and it is really make me upset when I changed but others don't want to accept it.

In some occasion, I can just ignore and walk away like nothing happen but this time, it is related with my future and I really cannot escape from it. I wish I can.. seriously. And right now I am stuck in the situation.


I really hate when I overthink about it and it really hurt my head. Just this morning I woke up to perform solah and my left side head really in pain. Maybe it's due to a lot of crying before I asleep last night. I mean, morning. Luckily today is my off day. Who wants to go work with puffy eyes, right?

I barely share my problem to my friend but she can't help anything about it except listen to my story. Thanks pal. It is more than nothing what you do for me. At least i feel 1% relieve my sadness.


Right now, only by go to work, I do not think about this problem. Since in my small office I have a hilarious operation analyst and a big laughter clerk who wouldn't lemme have my own time. I used show my grumpy face because I want to be alone but they really don't understand or don't want to understand? So I end up be my cheerful self. But once I stepped out from my office, all the sorrow feelings came back to me. I spaced out while I ride on my motorcycle and wonder how long will this last?

I changed for my own good, I changed because I tired being hurt, I changed to protect myself. And once again, when this rain will stop? Cause I'm really missing the beautiful rainbow.